We were texting back and forth
I texted randomly
But you don’t want to feel for me you put up a fight
He texted back ignorance ?
I said No frontantial drift
from there we texted words back and forth.. and from those word
I created a this poem.
When you feed my creativity , you trigger a disastric lunch

But you don’t want to feel for me you put up a fight
Ignorance?
No frontanial drift
Exponential difference
We have Continental Shift
Now open there’s potential valibility
You only had substantial presence
You had to keep your
Artistic Integrity .. It created the space between you and me.
But I had to keep my educational stability
Recreational Affiliation only made me fear you and me , I was a past time now
we have Regional discrepancy
I guess that’s the end of you and me

Journal #2

Millions of feet stampeded through the big brown doors, rusty swing sets that were once empty now upholding two children at a time. “I’m going to get you’s!” and “You’re it’s” echoed through the yard. Lunch boxes grips loosened in return for a space on the bright orange monkey bars. I scuffled around with a trash bag picking up an apple in my path and luckily stumbling upon a juice box. I could hear my heart beating in my ear drums, almost successfully drowning out the cries of my stomach. “Shut up, be strong now”, I whispered to it. Our conversation quickly came to a halt by a sharp pain in my neck, by my foot lay the rock that was thrown, and I immediately regretted entering the yard. “Smelly Rachel, Leave our school nobody likes you!” the red haired boy said. “Yeah leave Ugly!” others echoed. Tears began to stream down my cheeks every teardrop burning more than the other. I ran toward the red doors that read “Bathroom”, doors that never rejected me.

Girls Rule! was inscribed in the bathroom stalls a sign my eyes were too familiar with. These stalls were my shelter, before school and after, protecting me from the dangers that lurked outside them, the main one being hands. Hands that hit, punched and shove, hands that pointed and scorned, hands that blocked the sun, hands that clenched my dreams, hands that I were accustomed to. Pulled from my thoughts, I heard a knock on the door.

“Are you in there Rachel?” through the cracks of the stall stood a pigtail. It began to sway back and forth. “I know you're in there, do you need any help? Why aren’t you answering me? “

“Leave! I don’t need your help, have you came to make fun of me also?” I responded.

“Come out Rachel, or I’m going to get a teacher.” the pig tail was still visible.

I peeked out the door, and a brunette haired girl appeared before me. She wore overalls, ones that were decorated with food she had eaten during lunch. She had on pink sneakers that were covered in dirt that complimented the dirt that covered her palms.

“I heard what those kids said to you, Are they the reasons you have those scars?” she asked, peering down at my legs. “No” I replied,tugging at my dress trying to hide what I thought was well hidden.

“Well, my name is Megan, and nobody messes with any of my friends around here”, she put her arm around my shoulder, an action that was unfamiliar to me. She then smiled at me, revealing a mouth full of crooked teeth and gaps, teeth that would be looked down upon and recommended for change, but to me , Megan's smile was perfection.

21 +
Drinking
Parties
Hangovers
Dating
Boyfriend
Misery
Cheating
Deceit
Lies
Tears
Cookie Dough
Break Up music
Apologies
Hallmark Cards
Flowers
Voicemails
To Late

IHOP
Pancakes
Syrup
Butter
Hot coco
Winter
Peacoats
Scarfs
Bus stop
Cold
Pushing
Yelling
Delays
Late
Bad looks
Bad grades
Angry Parent
Scorning
Shameful
Missed oppurtunities
Laguardia
More friends
Less headache
Better grades

Theater
Lights
Attention
Retakes
Script Memorizing
Improvising
Creativity
Laughs
Different Roles
New person
Comedy
Smiles
Good time
Better soul

You're not invited for lunch. #1B

Things that ruin lunch :
1. Being lied to : it angers me when someone lies to my face, if I give you the common respect to be honest with you I expect the same.
2. Broken promises: In my life , many people have promised to do certain things for me or with me , Im shattered when the person doesn't keep their word.
3. Stereotypes: Stereotypes "sets a bar" and makes a profile on how a person should act simply because of their appearance or gender, it allows judgment to be placed on a person and denies first impression.
4. Pessimists : I tend to run on optimistic feul , and when a pessimists is in my passenger seat , their negative outlooks tend to affect my personal thinking. I tend to avoid pessimists at all times.
5. The Close minded: Close minded people I feel tend to sometimes take life for granted. They shun out new experiences and shun out idea that aren't familiar.
6. Fake people: It annoys me when people act one way in front of a person then acts a certain way in front of their face. Say what's real.
7. Followers : People who dont make their own decisions.

Why lunch may be canceled (Afraid of )
1. Not being able to fulfill my goals because of financial reasons or other restrictions.
2. Being on this earth , and not impacting someones life in any type of way.
3. Being alone forever or dieing alone
4. Growing old and not being able to say I have experienced the seven wonders.
5. Seeing my loved ones die
6. Being unsatisfied with my life.
7. Loosing my sense of humor
8.Loving and not being loved back
9. Exposing my weaknesses and being token advantage of

Things you have to bring with you to lunch ;
1. Blackberry
2. Any type of fashion magazine
3. Victoria Secret Lip gloss
4. Camera
5. UO or H&M Gift card
6. Cookie Dough Ice cream
7. The Notebook or Gone with the Wind DVD

Things I wish had NEVER been said
1. Kayla your to insensitive.
2. I really don't want to talk to you right now
3. You have the biggest mouth
4. You can't play with us because of your skin >

Things that changed me :
1. Experiencing pettiness from teachers. > Mrs. R accusing me of talking about her
2. Being drained of my personality , by people around me > having a best friend who mimicked my every move
3. Being betrayed by people who thought loved me> having my dad say all those bad things about me
,4. Realizing that I only truly have myself in this world
5. Expecting people not to lie and hurt me > past boyfriends lying and not being there

Things that make me cry
1. The Notebook
2. Titanic
3. Heartbreak
4. Stressed > To much negative things going
5. Being deceived
6. Told im not good enough >
7. Remarks by adults >

Things I hope I never see
1.My mother die
2. The world end
3. Someone get killed

Things I love to eat
1.Cookie Dough Ice Cream
2.Louisiana Crunch Cake
3.Crab Legs
4.Shrimp
5.Garlic Bread

Things I don’t believe in
1.Blindly following religion
2.Santa Claus
3.Toothfairy

Things to DVR while your at Lunch
1.The 70s Show
2.The Real World
3.Family Guy
4. Real Chance of Love


I wish you never exsisted
1.Homework
2.Mandatory School all 5 days a week
3 Diseases
4. Poverty
5. Mosquitoes
6.Slavery

When it rains on lunch:
1. I stay in doors
2.Play monopoly
3.Talk on the phone

Things I would do If I won the lottery:
1.Buy a house
2.Close down a movie theater for me and my friends
3.Get a recording studio
4.Roll around in a tub of movie

Things I would want to win a award for :
1.Best Actress of All time
2.Most Courageous
3.Funniest
4.Leadership Skills


Things that irritate me on the train :
1.The sniffles- Guy sitting next to me , and started to put vicks in his nose
2.People who don't cover their mouths- In Chipotles, guy with the glasses starts to cough all on me
3.Squeezing into small places- Women squeezing into the three seater seat with me against the pole


Things I like to wake up to in the morning:
1.Text Messages from my friends- Erma or Seemore Texting me to get up
2.Pancakes- ihop very fluffy and delicious
3.The Sun- When my shades are up and my room is clean


Wierd Moments I remember of my Childhood:
1.My first kiss at age 5- Sitting on the bench playing house, while Jared acted like he just came home from "work" and kissed me
2.Being in my babysitters house- Having her tell me to pick up the falling baby
3.Jumping on the bed- Dad hitting me on the back of my legs and leaving when I didnt stop , I cried for hours
4.Crying for pizza hut- Always craving pizza hut and having dad tell me to bequiet and go to sleep
5.Treating my cat like a dog- Putting a leash around Shandy's neck trying to get her to run with me =[


Drinks I would'nt mind drinking forever:
1.Iced Tea - Filling my cup up with Iced Tea on the Cruise
2.Pina Coloda - Pouring the Coco Lopez in the blender
3.Warm Chocolate Milk- In philadelphia ordering the best chocolate milk with my pancakes
4.Minute Maid Tropical Punch- Mom always gives it to me with the best food.


Objects I think come alive at night:
1.Dolls- Swearing the my dolls eyes blinged
2.Toaster- Disney movie the appliances were talking to each other
3.Fridge


Things I have the worst problem remembering
1.Birthdates- My aunt's Cheryl's face when she talked about how I forgot
2.Places I have to be- Student Council when my phone didnt remind me
3.Things I HAVE to do- Mom's face when I came home

Things I would change about my family
1.Parents Married- Mothers closed invitations
2.Brothers and Sisters-"Miracle on 34Street when the little girl opens her magazine"
3.Larger- Thanksgiving with my small family huddled around the tv , waiting for mom
4.More together - Me inside on my phone while Jazz and others are talking outside.
5.Family all in one place-Khaliq in California .

Things I admire about people.
1.Sense of style- Rihanna and her mohawk haircut
2.Strong Opinions-Al when he says wahts on his mind no matter how hard it is.
3.Able to Overcome obastacles- Watching Ahmistad in the 9th grade.

Things I wish I never quit
1.The Metropolitan Opera - Elena the choir director , was very strict she yelled and scared me.
2.Piano Lessons- Hating wednesday piano lessons, never practiced at home always showed
3.Ballet-Jumping over the black bag that used to be in the middle of the room

Things I want people to say and actually mean
1.I love you - Daniel would say it all the time and not mean it
2.I'll never leave you - My best friend Eric promises to always be there
3.I'll never hurt you- Big Starbucks , sitting on the sidewalk listening to him repeatedly try and fix us .

Things I wish I had the heart to say
1. I dont think we should be friends anymore - When I stopped talking to my friend out of the blue and I ran away from her at recess
2.You are annoying me go away- When K kept on following me and trying to talk to me
3.Your story is pointless bequiet- Talking and talking with his hand on my shoulder , I felt like chopping my ears off.

3 min Appetizer ( Journal Entry 1A ) Freewrite.

It's 8am , "Im late, I'm late".
Shoes on the sidewalk. Red pumps, black tie-ups , flip flops, flats. "Is that Kayla Ross?" a girl in her mid - twenties loudly asks her friend. People then start to look in my direction , I try to ignore the multiple gazes. I knew I arrived all those mini-series and stage play finally paid off. I entered the red doors , that read Actors enter here. On the set doughnuts awaited me and before I could even taste the doughy substance I was greeted by a tall slim figure. "Darling , you are late. You have twenty minutes to re-memorize the new act four , and atleast five minutes for make up and dressing." Before I could utter out a response, I was thrown into a chair with bronzer and blush greeting me. Would I be able to pull this one off ? Was I prepared for the theater ? Am I not fit out for this fast pace environment ?

Putting down the tablecloth.

Goals to accomplish in English 12 ;

This year I will expand my vocabulary base , confronting unfamiliar words and challenging myself to USE them on a day to day basis.
I will take advantage of due dates as soon as they are given making sure to allow myself a week or more time to complete and revise any written materials.
Make sure to maintain a 90+ and arrive to class on time, ready to learn.
Not only will I stick to boring explanations , I will learn different ways to play with words and unique techniques to grasp a reader into my pieces.
I will not allow my voice to shiver in classes , raising my hand and giving my opinion when it is needed .
Most importantly I will leave english 12 a better writer along with pieces I will have forever.